The Gateway to Heaven
interpreting lost gospel and a plea to the women
(I begin with a plea to the women.)
My beloved sister, please love yourself. Trust the grip of knowing within you and follow the flutter in your heart. Let your sacred impulses guide your life and therefore shape all of life.
My fellow tender of the circle, please do not lay down with another with a shred of doubt in your heart or you violate yourself. Please my beloved wise woman, keeper of the flame, knower of all names, if you allow another to enter your temple despite your body’s no, you violate yourself.
As a woman, who holds the sought after chalice in her Womb, allow all your pleasures to flourish as long as they are not a means of escape, or you are ignoring a deeper pain, and violate yourself.
When we violate ourselves we permit violation to others
When we lie to ourselves we condone a society of deceit
When we deny our own instincts we turn our back on life and call it illness
And within you, you will build a prison instead of a palace and that is what the Earth becomes, that is what human life becomes.
Baring against, gripping against, pushing for or swallowing even the slightest tinge of bitterness in the name of love is anything but.
Do not harvest your precious pearls of wisdom and throw them to the mind swirling, swindling fears of rejection. You are endlessly supported to be nourished because you came to nourish.
Do not reshape yourself to fit into any form but the one your creator has so delicately and perfectly chiseled for you- exactly as is for your perfect journey through the realms of Heaven on Earth.
Do not compromise yourself or you will go to hell. Hell is a realm suffered internally that prevents the Soul from experiencing the true nature of its being.
When you compromise, turn away from, lie to yourself and others you silence the ever present voice of wisdom within you and turn away from God, Life. And the children follow.
When you defy the natural instincts, the intuition and the God voice within your body, you enact an energetic dissonance with life. This induces grave suffering, mental insanity, fragmentation of the soul, and a state of internal chaos.
Somewhere in every woman’s body lives, or has lived, a belief that it is ok to be violated. For many it has become second nature to violate ourselves. This is the worst type of violation. Trust me. It far surpasses anything that could happen from external forces.
And when you can meet yourself in that realization, that pain, without blame, and travel the lay lines of your body back to the beginning of time to hear the voice of Truth within you again, AND TRUST WHAT YOU HEAR, SEE AND EXPERIENCE IN THE FACE OF ANOTHER’S JUDGEMENT, you help others walk those same paths home.
Trust that when you make choices that help you thrive, you help others thrive. This is so vital to understand. It is true self-esteem, true love of self and therefore love of all beings.
Women’s bodies bring God into form. Women’s bodies hold the memory of creation and the gospel of resurrection, the blueprint for regeneration of Life in balance according to sacred law. Women are doorways to Heaven.
These realms are accessed when you can walk into and through your holy hell with the dark faced one- blazing fire in her eyes and a forked tongue. She teaches how to see with a fierce resolve in truth, to empty yourself to nothing but the guttural cry for the losses, for the injustice, for the betrayals of Self and why you turn away from your heart. There is a silent embrace waiting on the other side of the pain.
Love yourself above all things and unconditional love will take the reins of your life. This is why you came. To love your precious life. YOUR precious life. This is the only way to truly love others without slaughtering your own divine connection with God. Including your own children, your lovers, your parents and anyone you hold so close that you suffocate the sound of your own breath traveling through you.
We can extend great sacrifices in the name of love but not compromise. This is different. We feed from our breast at 1am with one eye open, and even that will need a boundary down the line for both souls to thrive.
This unraveling is horrible to walk though. But much less horrible than suffering the consequences of self betrayal. The pain of turning against myself has almost cost me my physical life.
Please hear me. You are garnered with a treasure chest of wisdom that guides you, and all that you love, home. Listen to it. Get help remembering how to listen to it. Walk through the fire. Remember how to pray like the Grandmothers.
From your feet a new formation of life begins to blossom. One that again emulates the unbroken circle of wisdom where all are included.
Please my dear sistren, be so gentle with yourself as you navigate this with me.
Heaven- Hell and the Gospel of Mary
God, heaven and hell all live within the temple of the word made flesh. The song of life in material form. This, and all wisdom, speaks through the body as nothing happens without or outside this body. All bodies. All manifested things.
I believe that in the unrecovered pages of the gospel of Mary, Jesus went into elaborate detail about the realms of heaven, hell, the functions of duality, self healing, choice, and the power of the body’s language. Fragments were left in what has been recovered that speak of the “Good” being here and now and in human form.
Jesus speaks in the Gospel of Mary of sin- the doorway to hell in Christian theology.
“There is no sin, but it is you who make sin when you do things that are like the nature of adultery, which is called ‘sin’. That is why the Good came into your midst, coming to the good, which belongs in every nature, in order to restore it to its root”` Mary 3:3
Heaven and hell are one and the same and reveal themselves depending on our judgements, reactions and choices in life. The adulterer will be dealt with by life because her insides have lost resonance with goodness that supports the greater web.
No self blame. We are humans with great vulnerabilities to seduction and impulses that live within the human genome. It is an energy system that grabs at our emotional body when we have not healed our attachments, when we allow ourselves to live within oppressive systems as law, and have not been taught the sacred laws of Universal life.
Even if we have learned, that seduction into self deception is an archetypal force that plays on our evolution, and why it can take self proclaimed gurus and saints down to their very human knees.
Jesus bestowed these teachings upon a woman for a reason. For within a woman’s body is a recored keeper of the creation story, of the eternal mystery giving itself shape again and again. The access and amplifying power of the sacred laws in a woman’s body is unsurpassed by all but her creator.
The full body of these teachings, but a couple pages that we now call the Gospel of Mary, were buried under a nameless rock by an old forgotten tree. But they live forever in the flesh.
The consciousness of the time was not able to handle the level of dissonance the teachings would have created in the midst of a Judaic system that vehemently opposed any authority of women and especially the wisdom of the body. It would have dethroned monotheism, therefore separatism and the condoned genocide of anything other than that which matched the indoctrinating belief systems.
It also would have had profound impact on other over reaching systems such as the medical system. Self empowerment, alliance with Life and the wisdom to know and heal thy Self disempowers oppressive authorities.
Heaven and hell are mentioned in various ways throughout all sacred texts scattered throughout history. Every spiritual tradition has this most powerful archetypal force woven into its cosmology- for a reason.
The twisting of the gospels of Christ, the misinterpretation of karma in the Bhagavad Gita, the misunderstood teachings of consequence within the Tao, the disregarded Hopi prophecies- but mainly the corruption within the Abrahamic religions' as they have had the most significant influence upon the world view of sin, heaven and hell- have turned God into a man (white), or some external force, who punishes or rewards for some sort of good or evil behavior.
There are consequences to our actions. We do not escape this. It is not because we are bad or to harm us. There are sacred Universal laws and no one escapes the laws. Life is moving us all in the direction of some mysterious balance that does serve you as a part of a whole web of continuous life- and God does not care if you die because there is no death inside the kingdom of heaven.
God is at the center of all life. Nothing moves without this Divine eminence. Going against the grain of this organic movement, for all of the reasons we do, and we employ hell within ourselves and this that is what we see reflected outside.
We (all of us on Earth) are significant molecules in the matrix of Life constantly recreating, regenerating and rebalancing itself towards greater states of genius and expression. We are implanted with a navigating system that is connected to Universal life, not just life on Earth. We receive guidance at all moments about how to ally this force of Life towards this genius.
When we listen to God we go to Heaven. We reclaim a sense of Self and power within ourselves that has unraveled the lies, the ways we control and why, the fear based ideologies and we align with a whole different rhythm in life. It’s an inside job.
If we make choices that confuse our insides it is hard to hear what I believe we spend our lives chasing- the voice of God within. We long to hear this soul rendering voice of belonging as spoken through the heart, in the body. It is the gift we are given. It is Universal love speaking through us and why when it is followed- the Universe has your back. You are playing in a holy court now.
We have been far removed from this wisdom due to the corruption of God that sparked a war dominant planet and a human race that creates weapons that can destroy all life as we know it. This created a denial of God in many of us due to the misunderstanding and the damage done in the name of God.
Regardless of whether you have been raised without religion at all or in a true spiritually directed home, with proper teachings- this systemic denial lives in all of us as it is rooted into the fabric of society.
When we lose God at the center of our lives we lose Life. When women return to reclaiming God at the center of their own lives- all of life follows. (Have I said this before?!).
There is a lot to unpack here and I will continue to unveil what moves through me. I understand if this hits a button in you and you want to leave.
I know why we have turned away. I turned away until my only way home was to take God’s hand patiently reaching out from the center of the Wheel of Life upon which I will forever live. And I would love to hear YOUR God given song upon it.
Blessed be, Shira
And happy Valentine’s Day- go love yourself.
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